I’m going through my first break up and it’s been about 2 and a half months. I initiated the break up, during the beginning of the break up I was fine basically unbothered but for the part 5 weeks I have been completely miserable and regretting my decision. My ex and I are still on good terms and in contact (which to some people may not be a great idea but it works for us) so I do have those times where I’m pouring my heart out to him and I’m able to get his perspective of it all. So I’ve learned how I hurt him etc etc., and I get the quote that I HATE so much when talking about getting back together “you never know what will happen in the future”.

I’ve learned so much about myself in these 5 weeks and I’ve realized where I can improve. My question is does the sting of a break up ever just stop on it’s own or is it when you start a new relationship or new project in life that it stops hurting?

At this point I feel like I can’t handle the pain much longer. I do have good days but most days it feels like a dark cloud is hovering over me. I’m literally in tears in the middle of traffic sometimes. Our would be two year anniversary is coming up so that lingers in my mind as well. This has been the worst decision I’ve made even though I believe it’s helped me realize so much. At this point I feel like I’ve learned what I needed to learn so now we should get back together and be a better and stronger unit.