Bad situation.. no judgement please

I am 19.... met a 40 year old at work and been in a relationship for 5 months.... Found out I was pregnant in June and Had a miscarriage 2 weeks later at 9 weeks pregnant.

I feel like im turning into that crazy tester and planner of when to ovulate etc.

i just have so many emotions still and really want a baby.

*** negative and judgemental comments aren't needed. I am here for support.