crushed

so ive been testing all week af is due today and normally im right on time..ive been getting faint lines like crazy and they havent really darkened.. i was telling my mom i keep getting faint lines and super thick pink evaps when they dry and that af never showed..sent her a pic and she couldnt see it at first(my mom is legally blind in one eye and her vision sucks) so i marked where the lines started and ended for her..finally she seen it with no problem. then my bf starts giving me shit asking if i was drawing in a line..so i showed him and he said there wasnt one when clearly there is i can see it without squinting or moving..so now apparently bc its a light line i shouldnt be hopeful...i give up. apparenlty im just crazy and want it too bad😥

hopeful... drawing in a line