Quite recently, my son went on a nursing strike and would only take from a bottle. I had about a 2 month supply of breastmilk just waiting to be used, so I wasn't too worried. My husband and I work different shifts so he was always home with the baby anyways giving him the frozen milk anyways and I was still pumping constantly.

Well, just a couple weeks ago, he went through a growth spurt or something and ate 3/4 of my supply, and because he hasn't been breastfeeding, my flow shortened from 8 ounces a pumping session to 1. 😞

I finally got him to latch on again a couple days ago, teasing him with an ounce or two from the bottle; and my flow is starting to come back, but I don't have any breastmilk on reserve. What I pump in a day is what he eats when I'm at work the next day.

Because of that, my husband had to go get formula so he wouldn't starve when I'm gone. But, I feel horrible about it. I'm not against formula, this just wasn't my plan. I wanted him to be strictly fed breastmilk until he was completely on solid foods. I feel like I let my son down because I wasn't able to do what I thought was best for him.

I know other mothers have had it worse than me and I should be lucky to even have him breastfed at all, but I still feel like that since I failed at the beginning of his life, what else will I fail at with him?