well i guess not everyone is interested in my story but I'm sure there are some ladies who can relate to something that might have happened in their past that might have caused not being able to have one of their own babies someday . well mine goes way back when i was raped at the age of 16 in school (schoolgrounds) were i was minding my own business practising my sport. and yah it happend ... i was kicked and slammed with a brick over my head and tied up with wires. i was left for dead .... at that moment i knew and felt that my life was over . hell knows where i got the strength to get out of the wires and back onto my feet. i just remember at that moment i felt nothing. i felt lost and zoomed out of reality while i cleaned myself and pretended as if nothing ever happened . not noticing 2 of my ribs were cracked , my head was slightly split open and my vagina lips were torn ... i walked home and as i got in i remembered my mom asking what happened. and i replied "i fell". i lied cause i felt dead and ashamed. week or so i didn't show up for school... and when i did .... the devil stared me right in the face. the guy who raped me ...well he was in my school (in matric) .... he caught me off guard and started threatening me telling me he would do it again if he has to "if i ever dare tell anyone about it". so i didnt.... and life went on ... so i started noticing changes all around my body and decided to go and see a gyno. with that one visit my view on life changed. its been almost 2 years before seeing a gyno after that 1 incident. and her reply on my results shocked me . due to that 1 incident both my ovaries were torn , my vaginal lips never recovered the way it should've, i had multiple ovarian cysts + some other cysts. and what shocked me most....was the fact that i wont ever be able to get pregnant with one of my own. and if i do get pregnant that the chances of a pregnancy might only lead to miscarriage. there i was 18 and destroyed on my way to having multiple surgeries. but one had to be postponed to when i turn 28 to get my overies removed because i was too young to undergo such a serious operation. and now im 24 still cant have kids .... still getting a bunch of cysts , most painful periods and suffering from bad skin due to hormones....and fyi i also lost my teeth and ended up getting dentures . my life so far has been one hell of a ride . and knowing the guy who raped me "died a few years ago due to oD_a person i knew who maybe destroyed more than just my life". but im happy now . i found my true love . best of all he understands he supports and still loves me after everything ive ever told him. and im grateul. ps. dont get me wrong but still till this day i dream of having a little baby of my own. and yet again this was only one incident that left me scared. if you would love to see my lifestyle make sure to meet up and follow my instagram page @1994michellevanzyl. and remember "God has his reasons".