Hate myself

Vicky

m 26 weeks pregnant. I always heard you can have the best sex while pregnant. My husband is in love with the pregnant body and one of the reasons I couldn't wait to become pregnant too was to impress him with the pregnant body. He has such a high sex drive,we both used to. We could do anything and we could be rough or sensual or loving. And now, I can't even bare the thought of even trying to have sex anymore. Between the back ache,hip ache,worrying about being on my back too long,the weight gain the cellulite,the nausea,the shame

in my body now I don't want to be naked. I don't want to be touched. It is Just a constant reminder that I'm fat now, that I can't perform the way I used to,please him the way I used to. It honestly hurts to have him in me. I feel like there is no room for him and baby to be in me. I feel like such a failure as a wife for letting him down like this. I feel like a failure because I shouldn't even be sad about the weight gain,I'm growing a life that I have prayed for for 7 years. We tried again today and it was just disappointment. He says " I thought pregnant women could have sex".

It cut so deep. Not only do I know I am failing as a wife, he does too. I love this miracle baby. I wouldn't trade it for anything. But I feel like the worst wife in the world now. I am sexually frusterated,he is too. I just, does anyone have these feelings too?