Hello , I am struggling thru something so painful I might be getting a divorce , I been dealing with mental health issues for a very long time , my husband has been one of my best supporters and during this struggle , but I have finally pushed him away with my last episode I got so violent with him I thru things I even tried attacking him physically . I am not proud of my actions at all i want to fix our marriage but it seems that he doesn’t want to anymore with me he has had and it’s hurts because he’s a great man and I don’t want to lose him I don’t know what to do , I tired telling him I will change but he just want to work it out , I really hoping good can repair this but I feel awful for hurting so much throughout i relationship it was nothing to do with him it was myself I take responsibility , I am so lost