I'm heartbroken 😭💔

so after a whole month its time for my stepdaughter to go back to her mother. I'm devastated, trying to hold my tears, cause i really don't want her to see me like this. A whole month where i get up in the morning to make us breakfast, walk my dog and get ready for whatever activities we had planned. Tomorrow is going to be a very sad day. i know for fact that i would not have any type of communication with her because of her mother. two weeks ago my boyfriend started working after having 2 weeks off and shes been staying with me. i called her mother to let her know that her daughter was gonna stay with me that if she wanted to call or txt my phone i had no problem. she never called i was the one telling my stepdaughter to call her mother. Every time i took her daughter out i sent her pictures. and its killing me that shes going home and maybe i won't get to talk to her until next summer.

⏫⏫ this Morning when i got up

⏫⏫our last breakfast together 😭

⏫⏫ our last day at the pool

⏫⏫ right now, tomorrow at this time she will not be there.

this is so hard 💔😭

Dear Jerryanix,

 I remember when we first met, your Dad and I had been dating for a year and we decided that it was time for me to meet you and I remember feeling nervous and excited. Your Dad had shared so many stories about you and I felt as if I already knew you. I wasn’t sure if I should hug you or shake your hand, but when you arrived with your Dad I did both and I couldn’t stop staring at how unbelievably adorable you were. I instantly fell in love with you. I couldn’t put my finger on why, but it was an instant feeling and I felt a connection with you. You stayed right by my side the entire time. I remember thinking that I wanted to be conscious and respectful of the relationship you had with your mom, and I made sure to not be a “mom” but instead a woman that loved your Dad very much and wanted you to know and feel that I would love you too if you let me. I wanted you to know that it was safe that you and I could be friends and that I wasn’t going to take your moms place, but that I would instead be a woman in your life that you could count on and have a very authentic friendship with.Here’s what I did know. You trusted me with your whole heart and I loved you, so I would take a lot of what my Mom taught me, figure the rest out on my own and be the best step-mom I could be for you. Legally you are considered my step-daughter, and me your step-mom, but we are in no way “step” to each other and never have been. I cannot imagine my life without you. I'm blessed to be your step-mom. Thank you for giving me the gift of motherhood. Thank you for letting me figure out and venture through what a step-mom is, celebrating the wins and forgiving the failures. Just thank you for this wonderful month JJ. I love you to the moon and back. ❤😍😘😭