Terrified to give birth again..

My birth story was honestly traumatic to say the least. I have recently found out I am pregnant again and terrified to give birth in a hospital again. I need to know if my experience is even somewhat normal.

Towards the end of my labor my epidural had worn off, my birth plan was to have a medicated vaginal delivery. I had called the nurse in because my contractions were back to back and I would like something to help the pain. She checked me before and told me that my baby was still high and that she doubted that I would be able to push, (throughout most of my labor this nurse had been very negative saying that I would have a c-section and that it was positive thinking to have a vaginal delivery) which I would understand if my baby was having any problems. Anyway, she came back in maybe 15 min later and told me to start pushing. I pushed for maybe 15-20 minutes and she told me that he had moved down and then left. At that point other nurses came in to prepare the room (because it was not stocked at all, not even the sheets were changed when I first got there) they told me to continue to push and the doctor had finally come in when we could see his head. I was crying because I was in so much pain, throwing up all over myself. I asked for help, that I couldn’t get him out. I want forceps, anything. She told me she would go get forceps, apparently they needed that doctor for another labor and my son wasn’t coming fast enough, so the nurse next to me that had been so rude and negative got on top of the bed and jumped on top of me forcing his shoulders out. I lost a lot of blood, I’m anemic so that makes it a little more of a concern. They didnt bother with a transfusion even though I was told by a different nurse it should’ve been done. I didnt get to hold my son the first day because I was too weak. After that not only did I have a second degree tear and soft tissue damage in my chest, my son had 3 different breaks in his clavicle. I don’t know if this was standard procedure or I just had horrible care, but if it is I would like to know so I can avoid it all with this baby.