So long story short:

My man the person who I just had a child with has lied to me about something pretty big and I feel like I have no idea who he is anymore. I have forgave him for not telling me since I found out and tried to see it from his point but I’m still so hurt.

So I talked to a social worker at the hospital when my son was born I guess she was in that day and had went around talking to every one and she happened to bring up that she had knew the father of my child an asked if we still keep in contact with his older son I said we did in fact and I talked to him almost daily she then proceeds to say how bout his other ones (mind you i only knew about 1 & a little girl that he was told later on by his ex wasent really his) and I looked at her confused like other one?? She then said I think you need to have a discussion with ur significant other. He was at work I called him and asked him if there’s anything he needed to tell me and told him what was said he said no I told u everything well a long time ago he showed me a picture of a little boy and said that it was his godson. Fast forward to the day before fathers day I went threw his phone Nd don’t ask me how I figured out one of his p.w and it was the little boys name he claimed to be his godson I looked at him and said that’s not your godson that’s your son. Some reason I put it all together. He then looked at me with a shocked face and said yes ! My heart dropped I couldn’t breathe why couldn’t or why wouldn’t he be upfront with me I asked him why and he said he was embarrassed he gave the little boy up for adoption and was embarrassed of himself (btw the little boy had serious health issues my s/o was very very young and gave him to a loving home because he didn’t have the means to take care of him and the mom was not in the best of shape! the part that I’m mostly mad about is first him not telling me even after being confronted and the fact when the doctors asked us if we had previous children with any health issues he sat there and said no!! I’m still so hurt by it. I want to trust him I understand his side )in a way)but I had ur child!!! Smh I have no idea what to think anymore please no negative comments

Btw he’s a excellent father!!! Anything I need or our son he’s there he works his ass off to make sure I can stay home for a little while. We never fight this is our second biggest fight in two years we just click really well but I just feel like everything is a lie. Idk I feel like my hormones too are making me over think everything