So this happened, and no one seemed to understand, so I need to rant a smidge.

We went to dinner, my husband my mom and I, just to grab something on the way home. But my mom ordered super quickly, and my husband ordered super quickly, and something that he normally doesn’t. So I panicked, because I have severe social anxiety. I can’t be the last person to order anything, and I can’t order the most food, and I can’t spend a lot of money. So I started panicking in the drive thru, yelled that I didn‘t want anything, and insisted we came home without food for me.

My husband got mad and blamed me, yelling at me and telling me to “grow up”. So I burst into tears and had a full on panic attack in the car and when we got home.

I hate that I’m like this. I hate that I can’t even go through a drive thru without being afraid to speak or anything like that. I want to be able to go out and do what I need to do without having to have someone with me.