I need some advice


So I've identified as pan for a while now, the only people that know are my close friends and my mom. I want to come out to the rest of my family but I fear that they won't love me anymore ( I come from a very right wing house hold, only me and my mom aren't right wing).

I've also been questioning my gender big time, I identify as female but lately it has felt wrong to call myself that, but at the same time it feels right.