What’s it like to grab a mans attention because you’re pretty and have an attractive body? What’s it like to have a man look at you and go “Damn!”? What’s it like when that man is your husband? What’s it like knowing that your man wants you sexually? What’s it like to have your husband say sexy things to you and know how bad he wants you?

I wouldn’t know. I’ve never attracted anyone. The only reason I’m with my husband is because I pretty pestered the shit out of him till he said yes to dating me and then eventually marry me. He’s even said he asked me to marry him because I pressured him so much. I think he does love me though. We get along pretty well and have fun. He never wants anything to do with me sexually though. In our entire 6 years together he’s never once initiated anything sexual between us. It’s only ever been me and he doesn’t even act like he likes it. He was even going to work and jacking off to open in the bathroom and then completely turning me down for months until I found out. Idk if he still watches porn or not. He tells me he’s just not a sexual person, but you’re gonna have a need in 6 years and never once has that need been me. I’m just so broken. I’m just gonna give up on any form of sexual relationship with him. I’ll just start using a toy and he can do whatever or whoever he wants I guess. It’s never gonna be me he wants. I can’t blame him though. I’m not pretty have a pretty gross body. I’m almost 300 pounds and it fluctuates. I lose weight only for it to magically disappear even though I do the same thing I did when I lost the weight. It’s like it just stops working. I just give up..