Only 2dpo and want to test 😩

I think I must be the most impatient person in the world. I’m 2dpo, 7th month ttc, 9 days from AF and ordered some first response tests that got delivered yesterday that are just sitting there waiting to be peed on! I feel like I might have a break down if this isn’t our month, I don’t know if I can keep having my heart broken every single month😭 this baby is so wanted❤️