I was the women who never wanted kids. I never wanted to be married because divorce was to real in my childhood.

After making it out of an abusive relationship two years ago, I told myself that I could never bring myself to raise a child because myself was so damaged. I felt like I could never ever learn to love and raise a beautiful child when I can’t love myself or find someone to love me.

Then months after making it out of my horrible situation I met my now fiancé. He showed me what it’s like to be loved and adored in a way a man never did. He helped me learn to love myself and literally did anything and everything to help me grow as a person.

12 days after he came home from a 6 month training 1,000 miles away, I found out I was pregnant again after suffering a miscarriage in July 2017. I was scared and overwhelmed to know I would be raising such a precious and perfect human.

Then in March I found out our little peanut was a girl. My fears settled in even more. How am I supposed to teach another little girl to love herself and never ever allow someone to hurt her like I was?

In April, he bought us a house. I didn’t help, I didn’t have money for a down payment or the credit but he did it all on his own for us. A 3 bedroom home with a backyard. We painted a nursery and started to make our home.

Then in May, he proposed during our maternity photo shoot 💕

In less then 24 months I went from being a broken and beaten women who felt no love from others or myself to a women with a man who provided me a home and a child to love.

Then on 7/24/18 Evangeline was born 💕

I honestly never knew that I could love someone as much as my babygirl. I wake up for her and I live for her. I’m forever grateful that my fiancé has shown me that I can love myself and love such a small human. You never know what you’re missing in life until everything falls into place 💕😭