It's something I didn't expect. My one friend who has had kids already has told me before "you find out who your real friends are when you're pregnant" and I think she's right.

I've always had a problem with finding non-flaky friends. I don't know if it's an age thing or what (I have a very old soul and it's always set me apart from others) but I just feel like everyone around me is so selfish. I guess I don't know what I expected, but I didn't expect for certain people to just stop talking to me.

One friend, who at one point was my very best friend, has all but ghosted me since the day I told her I was pregnant. We were both on a weight loss journey prior to me being pregnant and now that I am not doing what I was doing before, and she's become obsessed with it, we have nothing to talk about apparently. When I do try to talk to her it's like pulling teeth and it hurts my heart. She has yet to ask me how I'm feeling, and really only ever texts me to complain about how disappointed she is in herself if she eats something "bad" (which, I don't think I have to explain, but I've been eating shit and am feeling really down about that as well).

The handful of friends that I had prior to my pregnancy all told me how excited they would be when I got pregnant, kept asking when it would come, etc. now, it's here, and it's just crickets.

I kind of feel like I just don't have the energy for this anymore either. I don't think that this behavior is anything new, I think my priorities have just shifted. But damn do I feel lonely some days💔 my husband is the best friend I could have ever asked for and the absolute greatest, but a girl still needs her girlfriends.

My hormones are also raging and I've lessened my anxiety/depression medication because I'm pregnant, so I'm sure that doesn't help either