So after another irregular month, this time longer than ever before; at nine days later than the app tracked when it should start, eleven days later than what my cycles used to be several months ago, my stupid period started again. And my defense is to pretend like I was never trying to begin with. It gets easier not to cry about it the more months go by. It’s nerve racking though really, I want a baby with my husband, he’s got seizures though, wondering if a fertility test for him would be worth it. At least then I’d know if I’m wasting my time trying to track this untrackable shit. Till then, bottling it all up is the only way that I can keep him wanting to try with me, what man would want to make his girlfriend cry every month by not getting her pregnant. None. Any guy will enjoy the experience more If he doesn’t have to deal with the wishy-washy side of things. So here I sit wondering what I can do differently to stop this cycle of cycles.