The hardest decision I ever had to make

I didn't know exactly what to put in the title. Recently I had to make a hard decision to terminate my first pregnancy, it wasn't exactly the right time for any of us. Now I have been feeling all the not so great feelings of my decision. I am not sure what to do, I have talked with some close friends about it. But it has been extremely stressful with the situation I have been pushed into by my parents since I still live at home and the worse part is that I haven't been able to see my bf at all because my parents have taken hold of my life and forbid to see or have any contact with him. I don't know what else I can do for this pain since I think going to a group to help me out with this pain my mother would frown upon. 😔