I'll try to keep this post as short as possible since I know most people tend to skip past the long posts. Basically I have a TON of anxiety when it comes to my weight and the way I look. I'm overweight. I'm about 5'1 and 150 pounds. My crazy supportive friends and my lovely boyfriend are always telling me that I look good but I truly can't see it. When I see myself all I see is imperfections. The main reason I'm making this post is because the main thing I struggle with is eating in public. It is definitely my biggest irrational fear. I simply can not eat around anyone that I'm not very close to. I will force myself to go hourss without eating if I'm around people I'm not comfortable with for an extended amount of time. It's not uncommon for me to go 24+ hours without eating. As much as I know this is hurting me, I really want to try to fix this because I realize I'm also hurting those who care for me. If any of you have any motivation or advice, really just anything that could potentially help me with this, please help. I'm aware I'm young (only 18) and I really don't want to let this continue to affect my life. I've struggled with this for 6 years now and I truly just want to put an end to it. I just need help.

I attached some photos to give you a better picture of how I look. I'm sorry for the length of this post. I just really ask for your advice on this because it's affecting my life so severely. Thank you for your time if you made it this far.