it makes me sad😭

I love reading everyone's birth stories!! I love seeing all of the beautiful babies❤️ I love seeing all of your Happy faces ❤️

it just makes me sad seeing everyone be ABLE to go through labor and have vaginal births! I went through 73 hours of natural labor with my son before I needed an emergency C-section. my daughter was born a month ago by csection. my doctor wouldn't let me try for a vbac. I know I'm being selfish right now but I envy you Mamma's. it's an experience that I will NEVER get to have. my doc says no more babies for me. it's just not safe for me to carry another. I'm greatful for the two beautiful babies that I do have, but I feel like I was robbed of my body and uterus. my stomach will never regain it's elasticity. I will always have this pouch reminding me of the two tramatic birthdays I endured. I don't know why I feel this way...I'm just sad ladies and envious of you natural Mamma's.