I feel embarrassed by saying this maybe by talking to someone it will relive me by saying it. Between October 2017 and December 2017 my husband at the time where fighting all the time and it was all because he was not showing his money that he made from working and I asked him where is your money going...He would not answer and I would say I bet your just spending it on all the girls you see that you want and I’m here at home with our 2 year old son watching him while you work but yet my parents are the ones that do things for us and here I feel bad for my parents doing the stuff that they do....well things where getting better till end of November begging of December and I thought I was pregnant with our second baby and I was gonna tell him well the day came on when I was gonna tell him and something made him sooooo mean that day and he got really hateful towards me and we where fighting thank god our son was asleep....so he go mad at me by the way I was sweeping and mopping and I didn’t say anything and he was just going off at a great rate and all of a sudden he came towards me and took the mop away from me and threw it at me and he pushed me down and I had a big huge bruise on my leg and my mom comes out of her room looks at me on the floor he helps get up bitch and I never gotten up and my mom was mad and I thank god my dad was not their to help me because I didn’t want my dad to go to jail and so I told him to pack his stuff and leave and I got a divorce on December 28 2017 and I found out I was not pregnant and it came around February to March and my ex husband and I where going to start over and try again we’ll we where trying for our second baby and we where trying till March well I had and appointment with my OBGYN on a Wednesday in March of 2018 and I did a pap and I was not pregnant well the following week on a Thursday my OBGYN called me and told me I have an STD called TRICH and it can be cured with antibiotics after I got off the phone I just cried my eyes out for hours and hours blaming myself why did I want to try again just why and since then I have not asked for him to come back he has a new girlfriend and he denying everything and he just won’t admit it and he sees our son maybe every two months.... and I’m here like who is gonna want me and love me for who I am when I had the STD I told my mom no man is gonna want me because they are gonna think that I have the STD still after I was on antibiotic and my mom told me when the time is right the time is right... so the next day I called the dr to see if I can get pregnant and how it would affect the baby and he said it will be pre labor and the baby will be a premie and I was so upset with myself that I let that happen to me but things happen for a reason like they say.