This WILL happen !!

I can’t tell if I’m pissed sad frustrated annoyed defeated or all it! Had my second IUI did 9 days of injections with progesterone supplements 128 million amazing sperms at 95%mobility 5 follicles and today AF shows up!!! I’m 41 years old and have been trying for 2 years. Had one chemical miscarriage a year ago. Every month I sit on this app and read all the comments in hopes of something a sign advice anything.... I have dreams of me holding babies I have visions and every month it’s a let down! Do I just stop the cycle monitoring, do I stop looking at this app, do I just close this door bc it’s obviously not going to happen. I can’t afford ivf and at my age the odds of it being successful are 10%. Somebody please just slap me out of this funk.