VBAC advice


Hi everyone. I had a c section with my first born bc i was pushing for 2 hours and he never came out. He was 8lbs 13oz and he was sunny side up. I am pregnant again and TERRIFIED of another c section. My doctor recommends for me to have one bc of first baby’s large size and said it may happen again and that a scheduled c section is better than a possible failed VBAC. Ugh, i just really don’t want to. I’m so scared of them opening me up and saying I’m full of scar tissue and no more kids. I want 3-4. Anyway has anyone ever gone against doctors recommendation and tried for VBAC? I am also terrified of trying and failing bc i know that is much worse than a scheduled c section. Help!c