My husbands childhood 😭

I’ve always known that my husband had a rough childhood. More than rough actually. He would tell me stories of how his mom used to make him and his brother lick salt of each other’s back as punishment, how she would drive them to the country fields and drop them off (eventually coming back for them), she would beat them, and just overall twisted abuse.

I always tell him I wish he would show more emotion, it’s hard for him because if he would tell his mom he’s sad he would get beat. So he learned to never speak of emotions. It makes it hard to be in a relationship when they never know how to comfort and are neglectful towards emotions. But I understand why.

So last night we were drinking and laying in bed and he starts to tear up, i ask him why and he says why his parents never loved him like he loves our kids. I’m rubbing his hair and holding him. He never cry’s, rarely shows emotion (unless the kids are really hurt) so I knew this was a big deal.

He goes on to tell me how every time he took a shower as a child he was afraid. He said when he was in trouble his mom would tell him to go take a shower, so she can go beat him while he’s wet so it’ll hurt more. So even when he wasn’t in trouble he would still shower in fear of if she was going to barge in.

It broke my heart hearing this 😢