Before you jump down my throat, this baby wasn't planned, we even used condoms except for two times when we used plan b.

I have had many doubts about my relationship, we are not seeing eye to eye on many things. We have had many ups and downs over the past three years but I don't think we can overcome these hurdles. I don't want to go into too many details about my relationship but he's controlling and very condescending towards me.

I began going to counseling in November after I had a baby with him, I also have a child from a previous relationship. The baby we are expecting is due in January and I don't want to be tied down even more, with another dependent. I have considered abortion many times throughout this pregnancy and I'm now approaching 18 weeks, the state cut off is 20 weeks here. I don't know what else to do besides abortion. He will never agree to adoption but I'm sure he'd agree to an abortion.

Please tell me what I can do, I don't need anymore stress.

Edit: I don't know how I'm going to keep the baby and not feel resentful towards it when the circumstances are so shitty. This is very hard all around.