Does it take for a man to realize how much he is losing? My husband and I have been through a lot. I have had to deal with so much and had to “accept”his ways. I have always loved him through anything. He will kick me (pregnant)and the kids (3 boys) out. Call me all kinds of names. Use depression against me. He drinks quite a few days out of the week and excessively on the weekends in addition to that will do drugs at least 1 time per month. It used to be much more but I finally got through to him a little bit on that. Of the 3 kids the youngest is his and obviously the one I’m pregnant with. I don’t know why I come back I don’t know why I deal with it. I know he has a good heart and potential... well I thought he did. Just like a lot of people out past isn’t perfect (5 years of not speaking.... that’s a whole different story). Currently we have been together 5+ years.

Do they ever learn they are making mistakes and will regret what they have done?? In an immature way I want him to hurt because he has hurt me so much I have worked on myself because he made it be that I was the only one with “issues”.

I KNOW IM A GREAT PERSON and a great girl/wife/mom/best friend to him. I know I’m the best thing that has happened to him. I know I still love him so much. Sometimes I feel like I shouldn’t.

Right now we are not speaking. I sleep in the baby room on the floor. Today we weren’t there to greet him at the door when he came home. I’m not rubbing his feet. Im not waiting on him hand and foot and I always do. Comically thinking, I should be a clown... I would get paid millions for being able to juggle everything.

What do I do?? I’m sure this sounds confusing as my mind is all over the place wondering how do I fix this. How do I open his eyes.