Calvin Knox Roussel born at 7:30 this morning, 8/8/18. 40+1. 

9lbs, 3oz. 20.5in 

Water broke last night at 10:00 and I was at 5cm when I got to triage. 

We did an unmedicated birth. Spent a lot of time in the shower since he passed thick meconium and I couldn’t use the tub. 

So I started bleeding and passing clots in my transition. Then his heart rate was acting scary. Then it got better. Then there were like 4 more nurses on top of me trying to help and making me lay in the bed all kinds of ways (which was REALLY hard when you’re roaring through contractions and your body is pushing on its own). They’re pushing fluids, have me on oxygen which made me feel like I was suffocating. 

I had a small lip of cervix left and doc made the decision to hold it out the way and have me push HARD to pop his head around it and get him out of there since they weren’t having any luck getting him to stable. Omg. 

He had me on my side, grabbing my legs pulling them back while tucking my head forward and pushing with all my might. I don’t even remember the ring of fire. I just remember screaming and pushing with everything I had. I could feel him so close to coming out and not having anything left to push. It was so hard y’all. It took 3 rounds of pushing/contractions and he finally came through. But having him stuck right there between contractions was miserable. 

Cord was around his neck. They cut the cord so fast and took him away. It was scary. They brought him over for deep suction and I didn’t even hear what they were doing. I was just so spent and hurting and moaning laying in the bed practically dead. And I kept yelling WHY THE HELL DID I DO THIS? WHY DIDNT I GET THE EPIDURAL? 😅

My stitches hurt like hell. I kept screaming OW MY BUTT! OW MY BUTT! 2nd degree tear. Tore right on my scar from the twins (another 2nd degree tear lol) 

Hubs has it on video because he was trying to get his first cry. I can’t even watch it yet. That plus the suctioning. It’s a lot to handle.