Just.... depressed

How many of you had blood tests done 3 weeks after having sex, and only had an hCG level of 2 and ended up actually being pregnant? I’m so bummed out... I want to have hope and say I am and that my levels will rise but... no one has hope for me. I just keep getting told “try again, it’s only been your first insemination”. My periods are irregular, haven’t had a period yet... don’t want to spend hundreds on opks again... having mixed emotions rn... one minute I want to try then I don’t because depression slaps me in the face. With my other 2 kids I didn’t even have to try... now that I am it’s like.... hell no it’s not happening for you type of thing. Ugh 😩😔