It seems like right after I had our daughter a switch went off. 3 days after she came home is when it started. He’s hitting me, cussing me

Out, pulling my hair, spitting on me & punching on me. Now He’s actually trying to swing at my face. Our baby is 4 months now & im not working, I have no money & nowhere to go. He yells & tells me to get out but I refuse to leave without my baby. I cannot call the cops on him because he takes my phone away from me & says if they do come I’ll be put out anyway since I’m not on the lease. He also says he’ll say I hit him first & he was defending himself but I’m the one with scratches & bruises. I beg him to stop & tell him all it takes is one wrong blow & that could be it for me, our daughter won’t have a mom. Does he care? No, apparently me talking back & getting loud with him means I think I’m a man so he’s “putting me in my place”.

I was breastfeeding my daughter & he comes & snatches her off my boob, I could’ve killed him😡 He wouldn’t feed her until I “got out” I kept screaming at him to let me feed my baby. He’s so fucking evil, if he’s mad at me he does shit to take it out on her. He doesn’t physically harm her but he does stuff like I just mentioned or he ignores her all day & she’ll literally watch him walk back & forth not paying her any mind. I don’t just let him hit on me, I honestly do try to fight back but I’m afraid I’ll go to far hurting him then she won’t have either parent. I feel like I’m failing her because the last thing I want is her in this environment & for her to ever believe this is ok. I grew up seeing this with my parents & swore I’d never tolerate it but here I am. I guess he thinks he’s got me locked now that I have a baby😔 then last night I was in a deep sleep & he comes in from work & pours a bottle of cold water on me. I cried for a bit then I got up & poured some water on him, of course he starts swinging on me & punching me in the stomach. I knew it was just a tactic to have a reason to fight me but I have to defend myself some way.