General ttc/ health and body

So this is my first time posting anything but I just needed to unload.

Backstory: I’m turning 30 in January so I want to lose 30 pounds by 30. To be healthier for when and if I become pregnant.

Well my husband and I are trying to become pregnant as well.. and at this point because we’ve just started ttc we’re doing the if it happens it happens kind of thing. With my job I’m gone for a week at a time so for the first time since we’ve started we were able to have sex the day before I ovulated earlier this month. And yea I know it’s not actually the day of so a very slim chance. But I bought a pregnancy test while at work for the just in case. And I took it today 5 days before AF is supposed to show up. (The second thing going against me). Well it was a big fat negative. Why does a stupid stick that we pee on mean so much to us women that you end up crying! 😢 I should focus on the positive side right? Now I can continue to lose weight to be healthier.. but damn it I wanted that test to be positive.