I've been camping for a few days and giving my SO a break today my intent is to leave him alone I will not text or call unless he does so first I want him to have the chance to miss me but I'm 12 weeks pregnant had a sono yesterday that revealed a gender guess and I just want to share it all with him I want to go home and hug him and kiss him I want my life back my dad is terminally ill unsure of how long he has bit its not looking like many more years and this is killing me :'( I feel so alone its unbearable and hurts so bad but I know he needed this before we were ruined so I'm respecting his wishes and left him totally alone but I've never wanted to go home so bad in my life :'( none of it feels right I miss him so bad all I do is cry cry cry I want my life back sorry for venting I don't want to hear how awful he is because he really is wonderful to us and takes good care if us but my son has been so awful to him he couldn't take anymore