I love him so much 😭 this is probably weird though idk

So... long story short, my bf and I are long distance and because my “family” doesn’t like him we never get to see each other or talk freely cuz if we get caught Im dead. And we’ve been together for over a year but we have already committed to each other. Since we don’t get to see each other, we facetime a lot... like 24/7 and we horny mofos so we also masturbate on facetime.

So basically he was watching me masturbate and I was going pretty slow cuz I was tired and all of a sudden while he was talking to me he said “tell me you love me” and I smiled and said it. I was kind of shocked cuz he’s never told me to say it. Lol usually I say that just cuz I wanna hear him say it. Then he said it back and idk I just got so emotional then I said “You’re gonna make me cry” and he chuckled and asked why then I said “I love you so much” and my tears just started coming out as I was still going at it. He was so sweet and was just like “Its okay baby, you can cry. I love you so much, you’re so beautiful” And I just started crying so much 😂😭 He then was saying like “show me how much you love me baby, keep going” and then I orgasmed sooo good but immediately after I started balling my eyes out 😂🙊 Then after, I asked what he thought and he said he loved how he saw two sides of me at the same time... “the cute and beautiful side and my slutty side” 🙈

Honestly there was so much emotion behind it though... I love him so much but I feel like Im losing him so when he told me to say it and then was being so sweet I got so emotional.