Tomorrow I'll be 20 weeks and have my anatomy scan. I'm nervous that something will be wrong but I'm also having second thoughts about finding out the gender. I've been wanting to find out the gender since I found out I was pregnant but now I'd be happy not to know.

I still want to know so I can buy clothes and start thinking about names but I don't feel ready to find out, I think I'm just trying to procrastinate 🙈 I'm not describing this very well but it feels like a big step to find out what baby is.