Nervous Waiting

I mc'd April 20 (we were not trying and I was on bc. I was about 6 weeks) and it was really hard. I have a 6 year old and my fiancee and I do not currently live together ( we are working on it) I am back on bc, but for the last I'd say 5 to 6 days I've been exhausted. I can hardly stay awake and can hardly get my self motivated to do anything. I've had some slight cramping and some nausea. My pills are saying my period is due to start tomorrow. Glow says Sunday. I'm freaking out about waiting to take a hpt because I don't know if I want to know this early again in case something happens...any suggestions? any one feel the same??