Ttc #3

Candice

New to glow, I have been using it for about two months. I have a very long history but I'll give the break down so some of you will understand that I really understand the struggle of ttc. I have two boys already 9 and 7. I have been Ttc for the last 4 years. I was in a relationship with another man after my second child and that grew into a engagement after a couple years. But things happened along the way that have Me wondering if I am completely infertile. In 2010 and 2012 my ex fiance( fiance at that time) had given me chlamydia. I treated both asap toale sure it wouldn't affect my fertility. I also had a leep to remove cancerous cells on my cervix in 2012. Although things were bad I tried still to give him what he wanted at that time. We tried with no success over the years. By April 2013 I left him because he ended up getting another woman pregnant. So then moved on to another relationship with a really close friend who'd I'd been thinking about dating just was still caught in that unhealthy relationship. But after about 8 months we decided we both wanted to try for a child. Me thinking it was a chance it could work began obsessing on trying to conceive especially knowing now for sure it may be my body. So we tried for about 6 months, but nothing. By July 2014 we both were repeatedly heartbroken. Then I decided to thrown in the towel for good since the negatives were too heartbreaking. By Sept, that relationship was over based on my personal choice and some odd behavior on his behalf. Then I decided to just raise my two I have and say forget a relationship and trying because it was obviously my body or me period. April this year rolls around,I run into the ex fiances mother telling me how much jes learned over the years and I'm the one. At first I'm like lady please, tell your son he can just live his life. Lol needless to say that changed within a few weeks of seeing him. Figuring we've both grown and understand life a lil different, and maybe he has changed we've been back together since May. We talked and he still wants a baby. Over the years at frosty cycles were very irregular. But after 2014 my body began to get back on track and became so normal I couldn't believe it. They beame normal flow ( usually very heavy and painful, to the point I've made hospital visits thinking something is truly wrong ) and it wasn't like in the past where one cycles 30 days, the other 24 days. They actually started following a normal pattern of 27 days and last about 4-5 when flowing. So we have been trying although I still have other things that may affect the chance like stress, lifestyle changes, diet changes, severe dental problems and pains all types of things started happening. But June it came a day earlier than it was supposed to and was lighter than normal only lasted like 3 days. Then come July it was late by like2-3 days did a test at the docs.... negative. Then it came but again changed in time frame Still only lasted 3 days, day 4 just spotting. Next start day is August 5. At first glow showed my fertility week from the 21- the 26. Then it changes after I've logged some things like my temp, days we bd and changed saying my fertile week began the 17th- 23rd.My temps have been so sporadic so I really don't know if I even ovulate at all. So to the users who are trying I am praying and sending baby dust to all, I know the heartbreaking and uncertainties that comes with trying. Especially after the history that part of my body has. I'm hoping this will truly help me learn my body since I can't find a doc who takese serious about my concerns of being infertile. Still looking for a reproductive specialists so I can find out if I'm wasting time and am done with that in my life. But until then I figured I'd keep trying and stay positive even when those - signs pop up 😓😢. So I'm trying for #3 and prayers going up for us all. There's nothing worst than knowing we were created to reproduce, but can't or have huge hurdles along the way. But baby dust to all the beautiful wonderful women and couples who are trying.

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