So I feel like I just need to vent for a second. I have a ton of friends and family who are pregnant right now and I have been super supportive toward them! I am truly genuinely happy toward them because having a baby is a miracle and precious thing! Who am I to be jealous because it's not my timing yet. With that being said we have been TTC for the past 3 years with baby #1. I have gone through two chemical pregancies. One was 3 years ago and my husbands 2 order sisters at the time were pregnant and not very understanding as to what I was going through. Fast forward three 3 years I just went through another miscarriage in June and the same sisters are pregnant again and almost due. I am so excited for them but we are going to my husbands family reunion at the end of August which is when they are due. I am so worried I am going to hold one of their babies and cry. I have become very good at keeping things together even when my heart is breaking. The military has taught me that much but it's still hard either way. Then I have all of my pregnant friends who have quit talking to me because I am battling Infertility and they don't know what to say or they feel as if I am just a dark cloud on their happiness, as if I have any control over my infertility. It just breaks my heart that I have tried to be there for them in their moments of happiness and they choose to pretent like I don't exist. We are currently in our fertile window. I am just praying this is our month! If we don't get pregnant this month then next month it will be clomid and trigger shots for us along with timed intercourse. So please say a prayer for us if you don't mind and sorry for venting but I felt like I just needed to get this out and if anyone wild understand it would be all of the other women who have been battling infertility just like me for so long now. I have a prolactinoma causing our infertility. We just hit normal range this month! Finally! 🙏🏼❤️🌈☺️