Ive been seriously craving a relationship with a girl for aggeeessss but Im 13 and I dont think my mom will like it. Plus, all girls I know that are my age are straight... so I just keep getting crushes and then hear them saying “I have a crush on a guy in the class” (nobody knows Im bi) I lean way more toward girls. Ive been told Im mature for my age so dont worry about that....

I just want someone to give me more reason to live. I get extremely anxious and have panic attacks and get suicidal.

What do I do?