In love uhhhhhlgleleel

So I started talking to this guy a few weeks ago. He seemed nice and sarcastic straight away, and I loved that. We only talked thorough the internet cos we really hadn’t had time to talk in school (different grades). So yesterday I had a great conversation with him, and I fell for him. It was amazing feeling💞💓💝💕💖💘💗my heart went crazyyyyyyy. Then today I saw from a picture that he was verrrrrry early in bed. And I asked him why? And he answered me that he wants to fall asleep and never wake up again. He was feeling so bad. And that made me feel bad (obvs I had a huge ass crush). He told me that he wanted to die, and that he didn’t matter to anyone. I of course told him that “you matter to me💓” IT WAS THE FIRST HEART IVE EVER SENT TO HIM AHHHH. He replied something like “that’s bs” and I got to prove to him it’s true, and then we were already spamming each other with hearts and stuff haha. He also told me about cutting...which I have done so I knew the deal kinda. Anyway. Today he sent me goodnight sweetie :) and I answered goodnight <3. I’m literally in love and I know it. But also a few days he told me that he likes this one girl, and she likes him....so I’m like is he sending hearts to everyone? And am I special? Because that girl that likes him keeps popping up in my mind.. I just feel like he doesn’t like me, but I love him. Ughhhh. Anywaysss I’m in love ❤️💓💗💗💖💘❤️💞💘💕💘💕💘💖❤️💓💗💗❤️❤️💘💘💕💘