I'm a mess

I'm a mess I am so emotional and just feeling so drained I just am tired and am sick of thinking things are mountains when they are really anthills. I try to step back and change my thought process but nothing's helping. I feel like I've been losing myself lately and don't know if it's so much disappointment in myself or if it's due to such a horrible imbalance in my hormones. I've struggled ttc for a few months and I've also been dealing with so much personal life stress that I know my body is just sending itself into preserve mode but I hate it! I miss the old me the happy me the me that enjoyed time with the world now I hide and suffer really bad from anxiety. I hate being around people and hate even leaving my house. I keep trying so hard to change all this maybe one day I will.