Please no rude comments. This was hard to post.

I’m having a hard time adjusting to life with baby. I feel bad. I wanted this baby so bad. He is 11 days old and I’m waiting for it to get better.

I expected an instant connection with my baby. Hasn’t happened. I love him and care for him...he is safe.

I miss my old life. I miss being able to do what I wanted when I wanted. I miss spending time with my husband. If he’s home I’m usually getting a nap in.

I do not enjoy breastfeeding. I can’t venture far and if anyone is over I feel uncomfortable when he needs to nurse. I get very little sleep.

I hope this gets easier. I know it’s a big adjustment plus I have hormones Plus sleep deprivation. But i am struggling.