Hi ladies, so here is a little background about the story.

I was in a 4 year relationship. I have 3 children , 2 from a marriage and 1 child from my ex of the 4 years. During these years I was so in love that I dealt with constant lying and cheating from my partner and even got annoyed that he was so attentive with my other boys like he was with our son. Other issues were that sure the 4 years he didn’t give me much affection and never told me things like ; he loves me, misses me, you look beautiful today, and flowers were on for an occasion like mother’s day or Valentine’s Day.

I started to feel so down but remained with him because I loved him and because we had a son and 4 years history. This year I found it he was cheating again with I guess girls from Craigslist. He apparently was paying them too. I gave up and we ended things. For 4 months we were on and off but argued most of time. While we were on and off he was still sleeping with people so I stopped sleeping with him and one day slept with a friend of mine that was so affectionate and good to me. I don’t love him and I don’t have any strong feelings for him but he is a good person. We slept together twice. Ones was fine the second time the condom broke be he didn’t ejaculate.

Few weeks later I found out I was pregnant. I didn’t know whose it was. I told my friend that it may be my ex but my ex thought it was his, so did I !!

My friend and I paid for DDC paternity test while I’m pregnant it came back today that it was my friends!! On top of that the test told me the gender - a boy. ( my fourth boy).

I’m hurt and mad at myself. I don’t know what to do. I love my ex even though we don’t work out. And as far as my friend he is not as mature as I am. He is 33 and I’m 31. He doesn’t have a good job because, he has one other son and he is a jokester. He is really fun to be with but not the type to settle. Right now I feel like I want to abort but I don’t believe in it. I’m so lost. No bashing. Just thoughts please!!