2 Sweeps and feeling discouraged

Hi all,

I just wanted to take a minute to vent. I know babies all come on their own time but for some reason I’m feeling especially discouraged and frustrated this time around. This is #3 for me and I have been having stop and go labor for weeks now. I don’t know if its just because my midwives keep telling me my body seems ready and then nothing happening that has me frustrated or what. Anyways I am now passed 40 weeks and had a sweep done on Tuesday and although I was 3 cm and 70% effaced with an extremely soft cervix nothing came of it. I had my second sweep today at 4cm and 70% effacement and it felt promising but it’s now been over 12 hours and there’s still no sign of anything happening. I’ve had a few false alarms at this point and I’m worried that I won’t even acknowledge real labor once it starts. I have fairly rapid labors and was in denial at the beginning of my labor with my son as well. Luckily I was home birthing with him so it didn’t matter much, but this time I gotta make the 20 minute drive to the birth center. This is my first time having membrane sweeps done and in a way I was hoping it would kick start my body in a way that I was sure real labor was starting, but instead I think I got my hopes up and am now just more frustrated. Anyhow that’s my rant, just had to share somewhere