***TMI WARNING FOR TALK OF BODILY FLUIDS***

As of today, I am 6 weeks and 2 days. From somewhere around week 3, I started spotting. Doctors were unconcerned, but with my history of miscarriage, they scheduled me an early ultrasound. Everything looked great at that point! I spotted for a week and a half. Suddenly, 5 days ago, I started gushing blood as I was leaving work. I went to the emergency room, convinced I was miscarrying. They ran my hcg levels, and they were just over 31,000 which was awesome! My progesterone levels were low though, so they were a little concerned, and they told me to follow up with another blood test in 3 days. They also did an ultrasound. They couldn't quite see why I was bleeding, but they did see the yolk sac as well as the gestational sac, so they knew that baby was still growing at a normal rate, and they told me not to worry. The next day, the bleeding tapered down to just spotting in the morning, but at night I was bleeding heavily again. I figured I would wait another day before going back in because I'm tired of my arms being pricked and stabbed! The next day, I woke up and passed some HUGE clots. Big enough to cover the palm of my hand. I freaked out and called my obgyn, and he got me in immediately. He did a pelvic exam and said that I was definitely bleeding, and not just spotting (obviously. I already knew that.) He also said that I shouldn't be too concerned, because my cervix was closed. But he did say that my cervix looked as though I have given birth before (I've only ever had miscarriages) He felt a little leery though, because I was bleeding a lot, and he asked if I would be comfortable with another ultrasound. He told me that he thought the baby was irregularly shaped, and that I would need to come back in a week to see if it was really the baby, or if my placenta grew early. He told me that we would just have to "Wait and Watch" for a week. I left, crying and thinking that I was bound to miscarry. I called my primary care doctor, and she was NOT pleased with my obgyn. She scheduled me an appointment with a new OBGYN for the very next day. I went in to this OBGYN, and they did an ultrasound. They found the source of my bleeding, just a bit above the gestational sac. She said that she thinks it is far enough away that baby should be fine, but it is hard to tell. She was concerned though, because the gestational sac is irregularly shaped. The shape the former OBGYN called baby, was actually my uterus along the gestational sac. So my baby's gestational sac is sort of bean shaped. They did see baby though, and they did see a heartbeat, but I was getting the jitters, and baby was so small that they couldn't keep the monitor focused long enough to tell what baby's heart rate was. She said that she was optimistic, especially since my doctor started me on progesterone(my levels were at 5.1. My previous obgyn said "oh. That's fine. Anything between 5 and 25 is normal. My doctor yelled at him, because from her studies, they learned that normal is generally above 12), but that we would still have to follow the "Wait and Watch" protocol for another week to make sure that baby develops the way it should. I hate having to wait in limbo and hope that my baby makes it. It is truly the most awful thing I have ever had to experience. I just hope that baby is okay, and makes it through. This is the ultrasound they took. You cant see the abnormal shape from this angle as well. The dotted line is my baby.