Trying since January 2017, losing hope

We have been trying to have a second child since January 2017 and I am losing hope. We had one late term miscarriage during that time (I was 18 weeks pregnant when I found out - very traumatic.) We’re now on cycle 9 of trying again after the loss. I feel like I’ve been through so much, I’m not sure I can take much more. My doctor put me on clomid for the first time this month, so I’m trying to remain hopeful that it will make a difference. It just feels like all signs are pointing toward it never happening for me. I didn’t want my son to be an only child, he wants a brother or sister and seems lonely. Anyone have a similar story?