I don’t know what to do anymore

I’ve been stuck in such a big rut for the past year. I don’t know where to go for help :( my family kicked me out of the house with no warning at all. I thought at first it was going to get better because they were toxic but lately I’ve been staying up at night crying my eyes out because I feel so alone. I love with my boyfriend and his family but it’s not the same. I feel bad cause I see that sometimes he doesn’t know what to do, heck I don’t even know what to do. I don’t want any one to feel bad for me but it’s so hard to keep my emotions in. It leads to me being frustrated and just feeling hopeless at the same time.

It gets so bad that I honestly believe that no one cares about me, like they wouldn’t miss me when I’m gone :(