I was so excited! I told my whole family. My doctor couldn't see me for an ultrasound until right around 13 weeks due to my busy work schedule. At 9 weeks, I noticed some dark bleeding. A few days later, a tiny bit of bright red sent me straight to the ER. The ultrasound showed only a sac that measured around 5 weeks, and my hcg was measuring the same. They told me it was either an early miscarriage or I was just simply not as far along as I thought. I knew something wasn't right. I called in to work the next day and spent the day in bed.

Three days later I was celebrating going an entire day with no spotting when I went to the bathroom and saw two large clots. I knew that was it. Four days later I woke up doubled over in pain. I went to the bathroom and confirmed my miscarriage had indeed started. I thought I'd just stay home and deal, but the pain was so intense and I was so lightheaded from all the blood loss that I went to the ER. They gave me morphine and I instantly felt better (who wouldn't?). They told me I had miscarried. I feel like I had known all along something wasn't quite right, but I was so excited that I looked over that instinct.

It's now 22 days since that terrible ER visit.

My hcg has returned to 0 and my husband and I started trying again right after the bleeding stopped, it lasted about 7 days. I have found myself experiencing some of the same symptoms I felt when I was around 6 or 7 weeks pregnant. The superhuman smell, poor appetite, but no cramps this time. I also feel very dizzy and lightheaded just sitting down. I so so so hope this is our rainbow baby brewing! My period is due in 5 days, although it's tough to be precise after a miscarriage. But I am holding out hope! I love seeing everyone's rainbow bfp's, they give me so much hope!