I have four coworkers who are pregnant right now... FOUR. (And a fifth who just gave birth to her little boy). All of them unplanned.

When they all found out they were pregnant, their lines were the same. “I’m not ready, this was totally an accident, I don’t know how the father is going to react” (or who the father even is in some cases)

They all have had healthy pregnancies with no complications.

Then there’s me. My partner and I have wanted a baby for so long. When we found out I was pregnant in May we cried tears of joy. We were ECSTATIC. We were on top of the world, making plans for our future and our little bundle of joy.

And then I miscarried. 7 weeks along. I can’t possibly describe how hard my heart broke. I felt like everything important had been ripped out of me. I sobbed for days. Kept telling myself that I would never have a baby. That something was wrong with me.

Now I go to work. And have to see all my friends on their pregnancy journey. One girl is one week ahead of where I would be, one girl is a week behind of where I would be. And it kills me every shift I work.

How do you all deal with the sadness, frustration, and horrible jealousy when you see others around you getting pregnant, (on accident at that), when it’s what you want more than anything??