I feel like I’m suffocating

I think my partner may have given me herpes and I don’t know what to do with myself I can’t stop crying about it and feel completely defeated. We used a condom but I’m still having some symptoms. We had been talking for three months so it wasn’t like we were complete strangers. I keep thinking what if he knew why didn’t he tell me I feel so dirty and just don’t know what to do I just need some encouragement right now