Confused,hurt,little hope....😭😕

So I’ve had lots of pregnancy symptoms. Peeing like crazy. Back pain. Moody. Lots of CM. My period isn’t due for another 2 days. Well today at work I went and peed and when I wiped it was bright red. I wiped twice and then I didn’t have anymore. No cramping at all. I’ve had 2 miscarriages. I wanna be pregnant so bad. What’s going on? Is there still hope that I could be pregnant ? Is bleeding normal. It wasn’t more then a t spoon 😭😭😭