I have a daughter, miscarriage after her, then went on to have a beautiful boy. My last period was July 22, husband and I had unprotected sex one time, we weren’t trying and I remember honestly rolling over after and being like “oh sh*t I’m going to be pregnant”... August 17 I took a pregnancy test it was positive, the morning of the 18 I had BRIGHT red bleeding after sex stopped after a couple hours, continued to have darker tests. I had a doctors appt on Monday the 27 and I should have been right at 5 weeks... I had had spotting the day before that was pink (I was crazy and took another test and it was so dark the control line was struggling for color), spotting the day of the appt that was pink but slightly darker pink. The lady who did my vaginal exam said the bleeding looked like it was coming from around the cervix not out of it but was going to have the doctor give me an ultrasound for peace of mind. He said we probably wouldn’t really see anything, but he looked concerned when there was barley a gestational sac forming, it was there and he said “there’s a start to something” and asked me if I was sure about my period date and if they were regular. Wanted to check hormone levels in my blood work and told me to come back in Wednesday September 5 for another ultrasound.

I’m feeling defeated and like it’s already over. I don’t feel pregnant, my nipples aren’t sore anymore, I’m tired but don’t feel as tired as I did where I’m fighting to keep my eyes open.

It was not planned but I do not want to lose this baby, I can’t 😞 I have so much else going on in life please God let this be something I get to enjoy.